So, I'm not really feeling all that good today.
I just finished a One Day workshop with Bob Bergen and I don't think I've ever felt this unsure about myself in all my time working towards becoming a Voice Actor.
Today, I was faced with the reality that all I have are wacky, silly voices and Impersonations ... no real substance. In fact.. I was faced with the fact that I have no real substance at all.
All I am are the wacky voices and impressions. In both of the times I was up at the mic reading for characters.. all I could was impressions of voices heard before (yes, I'll admit that I did add my own uniqueness to them) .. but I don't think they were considered to be "Unique, Original Characters".
I mean, I know I have some Original Charcters that I came up with, but when I saw the description and picture of the Character.. I could only think of pulling out the Three Stooges and Ed Wynn impressions respectively.
I dunno.. I think I might be getting too hard on myself and putting myself down for no reason.. but after the class... it almost felt like I had no original talent or skill as a Voice Actor... I've been down like this ever since.
Even now, I keep asking myself.. "Am I really cut out for this?" "Have I been fooling myself into thinking I can really make it as a Successful Voice Actor?" "Do I only think I have skill and originality?".
Yeah, most people who know me will know that self-esteem is not something I have in spades and I have a tendency to get emotionally down when things seem to go awry from my perspective. So now I'm questioning my future as a Voice Actor and whether I'm worthy of having a Commercial Demo and again, whether or not I actually have any valuable talent at all.
To offer the other side of the story... Bob did say that I should take classes on Acting Technique and Improv before I shell out a single penny on Voice Over classes and that I need to learn to focus while "Off-Stage".
Oh well, I have the Commercial Class tommorow... maybe that will perk up my spirits a bit.
But that kind of segue's into another thing I wanted to bring up.
I currently live in Oxnard, Ca. Ventura County, about 1 hour north of LA. The Lease on my Apartment will expire in November.
I want to take this opportunity to move to LA so I can be closer to the industry and be able to take more classes and have better access to the Voice Acting resources that are only found in LA.
I was thinking of maybe North Hollywood, or Burbank, or Toluca Lake, or anywhere along the 4-line intersection of the 101/170/134.
Right now, I can afford about $600 a month in Rent and really I'm just looking for a place to live.
So, I'm putting this out to everyone here who reads this. If you know anyone or have any leads as to places that are renting or people who have rooms/places avaialable.. please let me know. Any and all help would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you for Reading.